It is very hard not to feel that way sometimes. I try to always be an optimist, otherwise the let downs can begin to pile up and turn your whole life in a bad direction. We were blessed with getting pg on the first try so that did make things easier for us. I never worried once about the pg I just enjoyed every single moment knowing that our daughter was on her way into our arms. I do hope that once you see that beautiful little flutter of a heart beat that your heart will start to lighten as the love of your child grows so very strong, even before they are born.